My dear little one, I've wanted to say so many things to you over the last few months but the words just have not wanted to come out, every time I have sat down to write to you I've stared at the screen blankly, so overwhelmed by the little gift that you are that my words just didn't come. The first 12 weeks was hard, morning sickness left me almost bedridden and unable to do much more then just sit on the couch and watch your brother play. I felt so guilty that I wasn't playing with him or doing anything around the house but I just couldn't, I vomited so many times a day and was so exhausted that the world just passed me by. Just as I started to feel like my old self again we got a massive scare when the tests at 12 weeks told us that you were at high risk for down syndrome. When I heard those my words my entire world came crashing down around me, all I wanted was for you to be okay and I was so scared that you woudnt be. We decided that either way no matter what further tests said we were keeping you, there was never a doubt in my mind about that. Last Thursday I underwent an amniocentesis, the test that would tell us if you had down syndrome or not and since then I have been so worried but I have just received the call from the hospital telling me that you are okay and I can not even begin to describe the releif I feel. You have given us a huge scare my little one but throughout the last month I have felt more connected with you and love you more and more every day. The other news that the hospital had when they called was to tell me that you are a little girl. I couldn't be happier, I always wanted a boy and a girl and with you my beautiful little girl my family dreams are complete. I can't wait to hold you in my arms and gaze down into your eyes. Love always Mummy